Part 1:
‘Grandma, please be okay. Don’t leave me,’ Aon prayed inside as she held onto her grandmother’s hand firmly. Hot tears streamed down her cheek as she watched her grandmother lie motionless in the hospital bed. There was nothing she could do but wait for her grandmother to open her eyes. Each petrifying minute that ticked by stabbed her painfully in the heart.
“Grandma,” she said in almost a whisper.
But her grandmother didn’t move, not even a slight twitch. Aon let out a small cry. Her eyes burned from the unstoppable tears that poured from them.
“Grandma, please open your eyes,” she sobbed caressing her hand.
But her grandmother didn’t respond to her cries. Aon took her grandmother’s cold hand and held it against her chest. Then she slowly closed her eyes and prayed as a tear rolled down her cheek and fell onto her grandmother’s hand.
“Aon ja,” her grandmother gasped.
Aon let out a happy cry and leaned close to her grandmother’s side. “Grandma, you’re okay.”
Her grandmother squeezed her small hand gently, “Now, now honey, no more tears,” she said in short gasps.
Aon gave her a smile but the tears continued to stream down her face. She knew her grandmother was ready to go but was holding on for her. She knew she was selfish, but she couldn’t let go.
“You need to be strong for me, my time is . . .” her grandmother began to say.
“No, Grandma, you’re going to be just fine,” Aon interrupted.
She didn’t want to hear those words from her grandmother’s mouth. She had watched her boyfriend, Ryu, die before her eyes due to cancer a month earlier and now she’s faced with this.
“Listen, honey, my time has come,” her grandmother uttered softly.
“No! Don’t say that,” Aon interrupted again.
“Aon ja, listen to me. Death is a natural thing. Don’t be sad. I’ll still be with you,” her grandmother said, “right there,” she pointed to Aon’s heart.
Aon held onto her hand tightly as her cries became loud gasps.
“Promise me you’ll be strong like you’ve always been,” her grandmother said as she squeezed Aon’s hand.
Aon nodded her head, “I promise, grandma. I’ll be strong.”
Her grandmother smiled at her for the last time, “That’s my angel. Remember, I will always love you,” she whispered.
Then her hand slowly slipped out of Aon’s hand. Aon looked up to see her grandmother’s eyes slowly close. Mixed emotions soared inside her body.
“Grandma!!!” Aon shouted as loud as her heart could and fell into her grandmother chest embracing her tightly.
“Grandma, please don’t go. Please~” she pleaded.
Part 2:
The following day, Aon’s parents rushed home from their business trip in the States when they heard the news. When they got home, Aon’s mother embraced Aon tightly in her arms. She knew how much impact it had on Aon. She knew she was a bad parent for leaving Aon alone the majority of the time, but she knew Aon would soon understand why they worked so hard. It was for her. Aon cried uncontrollably in her mother’s arms. She blocked out everything that was happening around her. All she wanted was to be in her mother’s arms and cry her heart out.
A few days later:
At the funeral, Aon sat numbed in front of her grandmother’s grave. Her mother looked over to her with sadness in her eyes. She looked so paled in black, but there were no tears in her eyes.
‘My poor baby, she must have cried so much that she had no more tears to cry,’ her mother thought inside.
After the funeral, everyone was quiet in the car. Aon gazed out the window as tiny raindrops slid down her window.
“So, have you prepared yourself for graduation next week?” her father asked breaking the silence between them.
Aon turned her focus from the raindrops and face forward. “No, not yet,” she replied softly.
“Aw, that’s ok honey, we’ll help you,” her mother said with a smile.
“Ah yes, as a family,” her father added.
Aon gave them a slight smile and nodded her head. She was happy to hear that they were going to be a family again.
Graduation Day:
The music started as the Class of 2003 of RS High School walked onto the stage. Aon looked left to right looking for her parents. They had a short notice meeting in Chiang Mai, but they promised they would be there. She exhaled slowly and took a seat as the Valedictorian gave his speech. She held her hands in her lap and closed her eyes.
‘Please don’t break this promise to me,’ she whispered inside her heart.
Before she knew it the ceremony was over. Everyone stood up, cheered, and threw their caps into the air. Aon hugged her friends around her and congratulated everyone around. She watched everyone run off stage to hug their love ones who came. Her eyes became watery, as she stood alone on the stage. There was no one there with flowers or balloons to congratulate her. She slowly walked down from the stage, crunching the rollup paper in her hand. ‘
How could they do this to me? How could they not be here on my graduation day?’ she cried inside.
‘I hate you guys!’
She exited the celebration, walked over to her locker, and grabbed her belongings. A photo slipped out and fell onto the floor. She knelt down and picked it up. It was a picture of her, her parents, and her grandmother. Tears ran down her cheeks. She was 10 years old in the picture. They looked like a perfect family, so happy, but she knew it was only a mirage. She wiped the tears from her eyes and put the picture in her purse. Then suddenly her cell phone rang. She frowned at the number; it was an unknown number.
“Hello,” she answered.
“Hello Miss Rukkana Huangmanee,” a male’s voice replied.
“Yes,” Aon said slowly.
“This is Sergeant Kamp, I hate to be the one telling you this but your parents, Mr. and Mrs. Huangmanee, have been involved in a fatal accident,” he reported.
Aon’s heart pounded heavily as her world began to spin around. This was not happening to her. God wouldn't be so cruel and take everyone she loved away from her.
“I’m sorry,” Sergeant Kamp concluded.
The phone dropped from her hand. “No, this can’t be true,” she sobbed tumbling to her knees.
“NO! DAMN YOU! You can’t do this to me!” she yelled to the dark, gloomy sky.
This post has been edited by tEaRdRoP: 12 September 2008 - 06:52 PM